UFC Middleweight Sean Strickland Opens Up On Homicidal Thoughts, Urges: ‘I F*cking Enjoy It’

UFC middleweight contender, Sean Strickland has opened up and spoken quite candidly of homicidal thoughts and urges he frequently experiences, yet manages not to act on his impulses.

The 30-year-old is currently in the midst of a five-fight undefeated run, the last of which came in his first headlining bout under the promotion’s banner back in July where he scored a unanimous decision victory over Uriah Hall.

Appearing during a lengthy interview with Ariel Helwani on The MMA Hour, the North Carolina-born, Strickland confirmed that he frequently fantasizes about committing homicide, claiming that he has yet to act on his urges, but believes killing someone would make him happy for a short period of time.

“I wanted to my entire life (commit homicide), that’s a big reason why I didn’t have a social life,” Strickland said. “Like when I went out and got arrested, I just wanted to. There was just something in me that knew that if I could just kill a human being, it would make me feel good for a short time. It’s one of those things where, like, more people think like that, and I’m just the one that says it.”

Strickland further commented on his homicidal thoughts, claiming that without the process of attending training, preparing for a fight, or actually competing, he would fantasize about committing homicide a lot more — and was close to acting on his urges after consuming digital media.

“I always say the difference between me and a lot of people, like you can watch Dexter, you can watch The Punisher, you can watch movies and you can think about killing, but I was on the path to where I was gonna act it out,” Strickland said. “I was fantasizing, so I think that’s why my mom took me to train. Once you start fantasizing enough about it, you start putting yourself in situations to act out the fantasy. And training allowed the outlet for the fantasy to stop. I’d just go train, I’d fight, go train, I’d fight, go train, I’d fight. But if it wasn’t for that, I fantasize about it all the time.”

Strickland compared the urges that he experiences to carry out homicide to that of a pedophile who decides against pursuing a sex act with a child and not carrying out their impulses toward children.

He further explained how on multiple occasions he put himself in several scenarios in which he could commit homicide on bystanders, including an alleged incident with a passerby who he was impulsed to attack with a tire iron, in an urge to split his head open, before choosing against carrying out the attack.

“I’m really nice when I meet people,” Strickland said. “If you’ve ever seen me meet somebody, I’m so nice, I’m polite. And I was like changing my tire and this guy walks by me and I’m like, ‘Hey, what’s up? Have a great day,’ And he kind of gave me like a head nod, and as I’m talking to him I’m thinking about taking this fcking tire iron and fcking splitting his skull open. And it made me so fcking mad because here I am, I know what I want and I’m trying to be fcking nice to you to make up for my thoughts, and you’re a fcking dck. It’s like, man, it makes me wish I could have did (done) it.”

When asked by Helwani if he would be open to the possibility of attending therapy or if he was seeking therapy, Strickland confirmed he was currently not seeking any help, but after his career concludes, he would be open to “rewiring” his brain. Strickland did stress, however, that he enjoys and likes the homicidal thoughts he experiences.

“You don’t understand me, I like it,” Strickland explained. “I like when I leave the house with the potential thought that maybe I could kill someone, I like it. After I’m done with MMA, I probably will work on rewiring my brain, maybe finding more value in human life. Maybe trying to connect with more people. But right now, I fcking like it, I fcking enjoy it, you know? I f*cking like it.”


Ross Markey

An MMA fan since 2011 and covering the sport since 2016, Ross Markey has built himself into a top journalist in combat sports.

First catching on to MMA and the UFC in particular back when Brock Lesnar fought Shane Carwin, and even more so when he fought Alistair Overeem back in 2011, Ross really became enchanted with the sport from late-2013-2014 onwards.

He initially began covering MMA in tandem with football back in June 2016 just as he was finishing school. The first real event he covered on his own personal blog was UFC 200 in July of that year during international fight week. His content consisted of previews and event and results recaps. In between jobs, Ross produced content on the side before transitioning to a full-time position back in early 2019.

He initially started creating content on his own blog back in June of 2016, before becoming a staff writer, lead writer, and editor for websites such as MMA Motion, Combat Insiders, Fight Bananas, FightPost, Severe MMA, MMA Power Hour, FightBook MMA, LowKick MMA, and of course, Current MMA.

Back in 2019, Ross received the award Top Journalist of 2019 for FightBook MMA, before he was then promoted to the website's lead writer. Following a six-month period at MMA Power Hour, he was also employed as a junior editor for the company. Throughout his time in the industry, he has interviewed the likes of Colby Covington, Rhys McKee, Pedro Carvalho, Felicia Spencer, Eryk Anders, Jussier Formiga, Danni Neilan, Frans Mlambo, Alex Lohore, Blaine O'Driscoll, Modestas Bukauskas, Ross Houston, Jon Fitch, and Richie Smullen.

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